Yes, it is a very relaxing song. One of my favorite's.
I'm not really... how to put this, in a mood right now... I have a headache and... she's not... like, replying...
I mean, she hasn't replied since yesterday. Though she posted random shiz on my facebook wall... You can't help but miss the person you, like... you know?
And I miss her alot... Sighhh.
Besides that, um, what has been going on? Oh yes. Exams are next Friday. Crap. Ugh. I hate exams. I mean, who doesn't? It's a bullshitty game. :\ A test that doesn't even make sense half the time. I mean, sure, we might remember those things now but it's not like we're ALL gonna grow up to be a historian (whut) engineer (pfst) or like, a teacher or something. So what's the point in learning all these and getting tested for it?
It's pointless.
Great. Listening to one of the most hurtful songs ever.
What Hurts The Most
You know what's agonizing?
Listening to your current crush playing a song that you used to listen to everyday when you were in love with your FIRST crush.
Yeah.
Bullshit.
I don't know.
Lately, it's been getting really confusing for me. I'm getting mood-swings. I'm getting all groggy. And what's worse, I feel like everything I do just pulls me even further apart from reality.
I'm tired of living in my dreams.
Running away from Reality.
But recently, it feels like reality's running away from me.
It's hard to explain. Almost impossible.
I look fine.
But I'm dying inside.
I know it sounds melodramatic.
I know that... I'm just being a drama queen and that nothing is actually going to end. And that, I'm not going to die and shit.
But who am I kidding?
I'm 13. Wait no, I'm 12. I'm not even thirteen yet.
An E in my paper is already a hysterical scream.
A person not liking me back is like a stab to my chest.
You know what I think,
A song can actually break someone's heart and penetrate the soul. It sucks.
Fall for you is one of those songs.
It hurts so much. Yet I torture myself with it now. Why? Because I wanna feel pain? Because I want attention?
I should get over it.
It's just a song.
Just a song...
A song is able to connect to the heart.
She was the one that changed me, you know. She was the one that changed everything. She was the one that made me me. It's not like I knew I was going to be different when I was Primary 3. It just happened. I just fell. I fell harder than anyone has ever fallen.
And I can't even say that I've gotten over her.
She's not my type.
Yet there's this lingering feeling that I can feel that keeps coming back to bite me in the ass.
It hurts but.
"A girl like you is impossible to find."
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