Not exactly in the mood to type. but i feel as if i need to say this.
Songs of the week so far: Drive by, Train. And Goodnight Moon, Go Radio.
Anyway,
I fell in love with a person I simply cannot have. because one, well, that person's engaged. I know it's wrong, okay?! I just... I dont know. You can't stop a feeling. Especially for someone as ... awesome as that 'someone'.
I call em' Fireworks.
Plus, Valentines is coming. what the HELL am I supposed to do?! I mean, I dont want to be alone on Valentines again. AGAIN. I've been alone for 12 years now.. well that sounds petty. ahaha... i dont know, ok?
I just miss it too much. I miss it all.
The hand-holding, the hugging, the sweet-talk, the flirting, the loving, the dreaming, the heart-beating, the kissing, the.. person. just everything. I miss being in love with someone and having them be in love with me too...
Fireworks... I love Fireworks. But facts are, if you look at it in a way that resembles the world, Fireworks is ENGAGED. . . I know I have a chance. I mean, I just feel it...
But... who am I to break an engagement.. right?
"I've been trying way too long to try and be the perfect song."
It's stupid because I'm 13 and I have a life ahead of me. but what can fill this empty crater in my heart? Fireworks. That's who.
... I just want a Valentines...
A real one.
