Like WHUT

I wasn't really being fair before, was I? Haha. I was being all emo and shit. :)

Now that's not nice to read. My blog's almost always like that. Sigh. Especially my old blog. 70% was sad and emo posts. like wuuut haha.

But whatever of th

at,

Exams are coming. :s I've actually been studying! Believe it or not :p I feel REALLY confident of this. Hahaha. Scarily enough. (: But honestly, I believe in myself ;)

Oh how damn CHEESY that

sounds :D

I am cheesy. Deal with my shit.

The sucky thing is, BOTH my computers at home are gone (They're in repairs) :( That f-cking sucks cause like... I need my computers maaan. I'm using Shereen's computer now but y'know, I can't write stories or like, read my old stories and shit. So it isn't the same. Plus, I got tuition in like 20 minutes.

FACK.

I don't like tuition :(

You can't blame me. Reading a book that has all those boring words is bullshit. Like seriously. Why won't they make studying INTERESTING already?! Like, Idk, make more field trips and studying groups and shit. I don't know!

But yeah. Sighh.

HAH. Moving on :) So about my lovelife, well to be fair I don't really have one. Cause like, I'm 12... and I don't technically 'love' anyone right now besides my family.. :p

So HAHA, yeah. Let's call it relationshiplife or something ;)

I'm still single. Sadly. Haha naww. Not exactly looking for a relationship right now. I mean, it depends on WHO it is.

:\

To be honest, DO NOT CALL ME A WHORE >:I I have my reasons for saying this, but to be honest, I wanna try a relationship without feelings. Like... "friends with benefits"

:p

What? Don't look at me like that! I bet your face is like.. (-______-)

Don't be like that haha. :) I just wanna try something different and ... y'know, FREE.

Like, no need to call everyday and waste credit. -_- don't need to keep texting. Don't even need to talk. But just.. like.. kissing and shit?

I know it sounds real disgusting okay! But at least I'm out about it! o:

Sigh. Fine. You want the truth?

I miss her, okay?

God Bless The Broken Road

Yes, it is a very relaxing song. One of my favorite's.

I'm not really... how to put this, in a mood right now... I have a headache and... she's not... like, replying...

I mean, she hasn't replied since yesterday. Though she posted random shiz on my facebook wall... You can't help but miss the person you, like... you know?

And I miss her alot... Sighhh.

Besides that, um, what has been going on? Oh yes. Exams are next Friday. Crap. Ugh. I hate exams. I mean, who doesn't? It's a bullshitty game. :\ A test that doesn't even make sense half the time. I mean, sure, we might remember those things now but it's not like we're ALL gonna grow up to be a historian (whut) engineer (pfst) or like, a teacher or something. So what's the point in learning all these and getting tested for it?

It's pointless.

Great. Listening to one of the most hurtful songs ever.

What Hurts The Most

You know what's agonizing?

Listening to your current crush playing a song that you used to listen to everyday when you were in love with your FIRST crush.

Yeah.

Bullshit.

I don't know.

Lately, it's been getting really confusing for me. I'm getting mood-swings. I'm getting all groggy. And what's worse, I feel like everything I do just pulls me even further apart from reality.

I'm tired of living in my dreams.

Running away from Reality.

But recently, it feels like reality's running away from me.

It's hard to explain. Almost impossible.

I look fine.

But I'm dying inside.

I know it sounds melodramatic.

I know that... I'm just being a drama queen and that nothing is actually going to end. And that, I'm not going to die and shit.

But who am I kidding?

I'm 13. Wait no, I'm 12. I'm not even thirteen yet.

An E in my paper is already a hysterical scream.

A person not liking me back is like a stab to my chest.

You know what I think,

A song can actually break someone's heart and penetrate the soul. It sucks.

Fall for you is one of those songs.

It hurts so much. Yet I torture myself with it now. Why? Because I wanna feel pain? Because I want attention?

I should get over it.

It's just a song.

Just a song...

A song is able to connect to the heart.

She was the one that changed me, you know. She was the one that changed everything. She was the one that made me me. It's not like I knew I was going to be different when I was Primary 3. It just happened. I just fell. I fell harder than anyone has ever fallen.

And I can't even say that I've gotten over her.

She's not my type.

Yet there's this lingering feeling that I can feel that keeps coming back to bite me in the ass.

It hurts but.

"A girl like you is impossible to find."

What About Tomorrow - Lyrics

What about tomorrow. It feels like it's gone.

Away from the storm. But close to the end.

What about next year? Is it suppose to come,

Or am I suppose to quit and run?

Nothing makes sense anymore. Life is not easy.

She makes it feel as if everything's falling.

Now that I'm clear. About the things I feel.

Oh God, please make my fairytale real...

Falling off power, dropping in pain,

You make me feel so whole but insane,

Slipping from you, drifting apart,

Something is stuck inside my heart.

My own dreams are fading away,

Don't worry, I'm running, I'm gonna catch them back again.

In time, though wondering, I'll find out who I gained

and who I lost.

What about Friday? It's meant to be fun.

It's meant to be smiles and some chases under the sun.

What about you and I. Are we still this thing?

Cause something's stopping us from making this real.

Tell me you want me. And this will be fine.

Tell me you need me. Say that you're mine.

A battle of heroes. That fall to their knees.

My heart is locked and only you got the keys....

Falling off power, dropping in pain,

You make me feel so whole but insane,

Slipping from you, drifting apart,

Something is stuck inside my heart.

My own dreams are fading away,

Don't worry, I'm running, I'm gonna catch them back again.

In time, though wondering, I'll find out who I gained

and who I lost.

This thing I'm feeling now is not like any other.

Something deep inside my heart.

I just can't see anyone else when you're there.

They try to pull me apart.

But no.

What about tomorrow...

Falling off power, dropping in pain,

You make me feel so whole but insane,

Slipping from you, drifting apart,

Something is stuck inside my heart.

My own dreams are fading away,

Don't worry, I'm running, I'm gonna catch them back again.

In time, though wondering, I'll find out who I gained

and who I lost.

Lauren Cimorelli

I. Love. Her. So. Much.

Scarily.

Haha.

Okay, so I stumbled upon the Cimorelli's cover of Skyscraper a few days ago and I totally fell in love with them! Seriously :)

Well actually, I kinda fell in love with one after that.

LAUREN. CIMORELLI. I. LOVE. YOU. <3

I literally wrote a song for her o:

I feel so obsessive LOL. xD

So.. yeah :)

I LOVE YOU LAUREN CIMORELLI.

Don't Bother

I'm Overboard,

... and I need your love, pull me up, I can't swim on my own. It's too much, I feel like I'm drowning without your love.




HAHA. Am I gonna start all of posts with a certain song lyric? Hopefully not. It gets annoying... Or does it?


Moving on :)


For all my readers out there who LOVE TAYLOR SWIFT, PLEASE, i beg you, PLEASE sign this petition and have her come down to Malaysia so that I can see her concert! PLEASE!! <3


http://www.petitionspot.com/petitions/tayswiftmsia


You don't even have to be a fan!! Just for a kid. A kid's dream! PLEASE :3

I want her to come here SO BADLY. She is my Idol!! SERIOUSLY.




TEAM SWIFT FOREVER <3


<3
<3
<3


HAH. that isnt the only thing I have to say. sadly. xD


Nawww. Ummmm. So I was thinking about it and... maybe it's about time I get serious bout my career you know. People are always talking about college and jobs and shit. And I know I'm just 13. I should be worrying about PMR and ... SAT's. But if I wanna be a famous star, I have to start off early.


Look at Justin Bieber! He started EVERYTHING when he was 12. And it took him FOUR years to reach the BIG BIG BIG time.


So.... Maybe I should start now. And in four or five years time, I'll finally be able to prance around stage with a leotard without people bullying my ass. :p

I'm kidding. That would be weird.

But yeah. What do you guys think?

I mean, I know I'm not the best singer... And I'm probably not the best actor or PERSON in general to begin with but... maybe, as I grow older, I'll start... progressing.


I want to make this happen.




This is my DREAM.

You Shouldv'e Said No,

You shouldv'e gone home. You shouldv'e thought twice before you let it all go...



TAYLOR SWIFT, I LOVE YOU! <3


I'm so awesome :D HAHA. sorry. okay, moving on.


So how is Awesome Infinity? Pff, Awesome Infinity is awesome, duh. A.I. is just dealing with a little stress with the person he likes is all. And maybe... a little bit of confusion.


Again.

Freaking confusion again.


Ughhh.


Yeah anyway...


What's up with you? Any comments, reviews, rants and all to post on my blog? I'm kidding, don't do that.


That'd be weird.

O:


LOL. Moving on.

Have you realized that lately, Bieber's been totally off the charts. None of his songs have been playing on the radios nowadays and songs like "Pumped Up Kicks" are playing.


No offense. But even I prefer Bieber rather than songs like that. I mean. I don't understand them. Not only can I barely hear the lyrics, but even the beat's all messed up. I mean, aren't songs about connecting to the soul? Or dancing...? Maybe?

Yeaaah ugh. :\

AND WHEN IS TAYLOR SWIFT GONNA MAKE HER COMEBACK ALBUM?!?!?

UGHH I NEED TAYLOR SWIFT SONGSSSSS!! <3






THE ONLY STAR I SEEEEEEEEEEE


I'm so lame :p



-Kyle.