You know,

I was thinking about it today.




Even though I totally squeal when I think about her or say her name or whatnot... I'm not technically jealous whenever I see him come into the picture. I mean, I know they're dating. That day when I found out. I wish I could delete that. But I can't.

Anyway.


Even with him in the picture, I don't feel profoundly jealous.



Honestly, I don't know what I feel towards her. Is it like... LIKE like or just mere adoration? As in, do I LIKE her or do I just look up to her as a role model?


I kinda crossed out that second opinion because COME ON. You don't imagine yourself WITH your role model, do you? You don't WANT her badly. Yeah. Cause I do.


Sigh. I do not know. Confusionnnnn.



Yeaah. But besides that, my life has been pretty clean lately. Clean meaning... not much dirt to dish on people. Though even if I did, that'd be a bit petty considering... well... I'd be no better than the person I'm dishing on.



Oh. And while sorting out that whole 'do I like her or adoration' shit. I realized something..






I wanna DATE again.