Changing

I'm thinking of changing back. To, y'know, how I used to be. Before I become who I am.




Umm. Michelle and Evelyn are completely on board. It's awkward. Considering I.. have no idea how to be what I used to be.

But um yeah.


I'll wait till the end of this year till' I start. Because now it'll be furgin weird if I suddenly start. I'll wait. by the beginning of next year when I come back to school, you wont even recognize me. :)



Honestly, I can't wait.



I know it's weird. I've been living who I am for two years now. But, I miss being who I use to be. The problem is, im completely terrified of changing. No, I am not gonna change who I like and stuff (HAH. please that'll never happen) I'm just gonna change my appearance and all that.

Im terrified because... I've been living like this for two whole years. It's not easy to suddenly get up and change back. When I changed before, it was easy because changing into who I am now is easier than changing to who I was before. Ahh- It's complicating.

Too complicating.



But yeah. Whatevs.


Umm. Besides that point, I think I'm just gonna be who I am for a few more months now. Only when the holidays come in, THEN im gonna change.


Why am I changing?


Because I'm tired of being judged. Plus, it's gonna be fun surprising friends. He he he he.


Besides, I owe it to my parents. I'm sure they'll love it if I change back. -sigh-